“May the light always find you on a dreary day; when you need to be home, may you find your way. May you always have courage to take a chance, and may you never find frogs in your underpants”
I baked a cake today; chocolate. I made a yogurt frosting and decorated it with coconut and rainbow sprinkles. I then devoured the middle and threw it out. That’s how bored I was. Bordem makes me fat and depressed.
It’s been a strange day, a strange couple months. Not working very much is not good for me and not only from a monetary stand point. Although without much money, I can’t do a whole lot. This cabin fever has made me crazy.
Maybe I’m also feeling strange because I talked to two ex-boyfriends today and a guy I’ve been “seeing” on the regular for purely physical purposes. He and I talked about love and it was strange to discuss something that you don’t share with someone emotionally even though for hours at a time you act like you do physically.
Today I also finally decided when I’m flying back to California. My return ticket is only valid one year. So I’ll leave Barcelona on April 10th, 2013. It makes me feel upset, just thinking about the day I leave. I was enjoying the fact that I didn’t know when I was going back, it felt good to be spontaneous, to have no deadline. No obligations. But it’s too expensive to just disregard a ticket I’ve already paid for, so I’ll leave. I know I can’t stay here forever. After all, I will be illegal come October. This makes life harder for me. Plus, I’m considering traveling again. Probably to Chile or Argentina. So I’ll need to save up again before I start a new adventure.
There is a lot to look forward to as well. I’m going to visit someone in Scotland at the end of the month. I’ve got friends to visit in Amsterdam and Prague. I’m planning a trip to rent a van this winter and drive around Spain for a week or two with friends. I want to see Paris and Berlin. I want to start Spanish classes again.
Autumn is coming, I hope. Sunny days and a crisp cool air always cheer me up.